Sorry

I tend to hurt people although I never mean to.
I feel bad after wounding one's heart.
I act like a jerk when I lose my temper.
I hate advices yet I know I need them.
I find it's hard to say this words, I'm sorry.
Although it's invisible, I wish you could see it more than anyone else.

_Yau

26, Awww!

This might sounds embarrassing–it is indeed, but I want to share this for no reason. Yesterday, I've received my report paper, and what was written there really broke me down, that I can't help but to cry my eyes out. I've predicted this result, though. But to see and feel it the real way, I was head over heels not ready–never ready actually.
I got this numbers, 26, as my class rank from 48 students. And 83 from total 531 second-year-of-SHS students in my school. These, I can bear. But 2 insufficient marks, it was utterly insufferable. I got 73 for Maths and 74 for Physics, which was the fruit of my inertness. Neither to exaggerate nor to boast, but this was the worst result I've ever got. And I have another reason that makes me feel really crestfallen about this. But the reason, this isn't something I can share with people. We do have our own secret, don't we ?
About my parents, they felt dismay, of course. They didn't show it to me, but my sister said that their faces fell when she informed them. Yes, I told my sister beforehand, and she was the one who told them. Gross! But it's okay now, although I needed time to convince myself about that. Last but not least, thanks to SPU, who assured me that I still have chance in this semester.

Nothing ends here.

I still have a long journey to experience,

a big world to explore,

and people I love to deal with.

_Yau

Arrival of Hello

This morning, I was kind of suprised when my friend, Linda, said that she had sth for me. Then she gave me a white book-alike thing that I've waited for around 3 weeks. "Hello!", the first thing that came to my mind when she handed it to me. I am utterly happy as I feel like a true fan after buying their album (ignore this). Hello is a repackage album of Lucifer, while Lucifer is SHINee's second full album. The album, which contains 16 tracks, has been on the market since 4th October. It costed me IDR 215,000 (shipping cost included) to have their newest album. It worth !

leader onew

almighty key

flaming charisma minho

blling bling jonghyun

maknae taemin

Good thing happened again as I found my sister was doing her homework when I arrived at home. My sister finally went home this noon. She has stayed in the hospital for approximately a week due to DHF (Dengue Hemorrhagic fever) she suffered. She looks thinner, yet healthier than the last time I saw her. What a relief.
But embarrasing thing also happened today. Me and the ulala boy were gossiping around, when all of a sudden he said that he wanted to have a good body. Then he started to mention boys with good bodies in our class. I also mention some, only for fun. For an addition, I came to a name of my friends from another class. Actually, it wasnt an embarrasing thing if the ulala boy didnt tell him !
Life turns me upside down these days. Yet I have friends who cheered me up. This is to show my gratitude for having such good friends.

_Yau

Ave Maria

I feel like punching someone today. Grrr. Today is my group's turn to sing Ave Maria. And it's super terrible. After we finished the song, our teacher asked each of us to sing alone. OhMyGod. I could feel butterflies in my stomach when it was my turn. What heard next was my little and very-not-high-pitch voice. I was really embarrassed as my voice is very bad. Errghhh. :(

Today wasnt my lucky day, tough. I slept at 12 last night and it makes me felt sleepy all the day. Luckily,I didnt have any tuition today, so I could went home earlier and had some rest. But, instead of taking a nap or thing, what I do was searching for template. Kekeke. :D But, pathetically, i found that it’s really hard to use it. Actually I planned to make one, but since I am very busy these days, I should postpone it first. Are you curious about what I am busy with ? I'll tell you next time.

_Yau